i was on disability for my illness for about 3 years, but then i got married and lost my benifits. which is crazy because i made a big mistake and married a man who doesn't work. So i tried to work but had to quit after 8 days because of a fight with a co worker,(which has happend alot in the past) i felt like i had to walk away or go to jail for beating her. So anyway, my marriage has failed and im trying to get back on my feet but i feel like a peice of crap because i dont feel like i am able to cope with people/ the public on a mental and emotional level and I cant keep a job. It really hurts because i consider myself to be somewhat intelligent and am capable of a lot minus dealing with people and anxiety. I tried working online but its very hard to find a job that will actually pay the bills, anyway, im considering trying to get help again somehow, but i kind of disappeared for awhile with no notice and im so scared im going to be turned away from financial aid and i just dont have any other options at this point. I cant live with my husband, i cant live anywhere for free and wouldnt be a freeloader anyway. I feel like a total loser because no one understands why its hard for me to work, and i want to work! i wish i was normal. Any advice? sorry this was so long everyone.
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