Do you have: terrible fear of abandonment, inappropriate outbursts of rage, go through many different moods in the course of a day, desperate need to hold onto a relationship, change jobs often, severe depression with suicidal thoughts, promiscuous sexual behavior, racing thoughts, feel like you are putting on a front - that no one sees the real you, self-harm (cutting yourself), eating disorder? All of these are some symptoms of borderline personality disorder. I cannot diagnose you, but if you are concerned, please see a doctor. There is a book called I Hate You Don't Leave Me about bpd which will tell you all about it and there are many websites about it - just google and you will see. I hope you get some help - please don't sit alone and freak yourself out worrying about it (as I have done!)

P.S. You do not have to have all of these symptoms to be diagnosed with bpd. Sometimes just 2 or 3.

I have fears of abandonement, fear of divorce, fear my hubby will die in the war, or die suddenly like my dad did. Severe depression, sometimes suicidal, I cut, I think often of quiting my job, I am very stressed easily, smoking to avoid cutting, very easily upset overly senstive, racing thoughts, hard time breathing, feeling like I need to scream or cut myself or hit something, very very dependant on my husband. My moods change like the weather. yes I feel like I am putting on a front...I have to, people like seeing the real me. At least most of them won't.