i dont know how or what to say right now (as usual) but im SO tired of feeling so frustrated because i cant communicate or describe what im feeling or thinking. its like, im too weird even for myself or that i like dont believe that im actually thinking or feeling what i actually AM thinking or feeling. i know that i MUST have some mental disorder or SOMETHING because im so not right in the head...but then i start thinking that if i try to get diagnosed, they wont be able to or that they will wrongly do it or that they wont believe me, blah blah blah. plus, ive already been to therapy and both my parents are psychologists so am i just a hypochondriac? (they just always said im depressed but thats because i cant adequetly describe my other problems) if so, i cant except that because being 'just depressed' OR a hypochondriac doesnt explain what goes on in my head! ah! sorry im re-annoyed/frustrated so im gonna go.
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