First thanks goes to the Holy Trinity who has been with me since I started my many troubles as a young girl. Next, I would thank my husband who has stood by me where no other man did or would have. My children who love me unconditionally even though mom has an illness.

I WOULD ALL SO LIKE TO THANK EVERY PERSON ON THIS SITE. THE PEOPLE WHO CREATED IT AND THE PEOPLE WHO PARTICIPATE ON A DAILY BASIS MAKING MY DAY BETTER!!!!

I have decided to go back to therapy. I haven't gone in a while for a few reasons. I was ill with everyone around me because no one has come to visit me. I felt why should I try to get better to be around this jokers who don't care enough to see me when I am at my lowest. Today I realized that I have been visited. I have been visited by all of you who have responded to my questions, etc. I have been visited constantly by the Holy Trinity even though I have been naughty, and I have been blessed with the world's best husband and children. I have decided that if people like you exist and people like my family, there must be others out there in this big world who are genuine or in need of my help.

I have also decided to go back to school at some point when I am better. I want to help people. I have no idea what I should do, but I am far too loving to bury myself in my comfortable home. There is a world out there that I will not be able to fix, but may help one or two people which will be a great accomplishment.

THANKS AGAIN TO THE CREATORS OF THE SITE AND ALL OF YOU THAT ARE MEMBERS. I HAVE RECEIVED HELP IN WAYS YOU CAN'T IMAGINE. FOR EXAMPLE WHEN SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT BEING DOWN OR THEIR PROBLEMS, I HATE THAT THEY HAVE THEM, BUT I REALIZE I AM NOT ALONE. IT IS NOT ALWAYS JUST THE POSITIVE COMMENTS THAT HELP, IT IS KNOWING I'M NOT ALONE.

******SPECIAL NOTE TO THE PERSON THAT ASKED IF THERE "ARE ANY SOCIOPATHS OUT THERE?" I AM DEEPLY SORRY THAT I RESPONDED WITH- I AM OFFENDED.

I was offended by how the question was asked. What I didn't take into consideration is that you are one of us and maybe that is your personality to ask questions in such a fashion. I AM DEEPLY SORRY FOR BEING SO QUICK TO JUDGE! Thank you for taking the time to send me a message explaining yourself. You didn't have to do that, so that also shows you are a caring individual. SORRY FOR JUDGING YOU AGAIN. This is one of the thinks that has been so helpful to be since I have been a member is that we don't seem to judge each other even when we have nonconventional thoughts.

Live well and wish me luck. I also have a phobia about phone calls so calling for this first appointment is going to be tough.

LOVE YOU ALL from the bottom of my heart and brain.

I'll be adding pictures soon. I took some, but I didn't realize I was as large as I am until I saw it on the camera. I have decided to post them anyway.