Well another year now 4 have passed without my mom (perp is her husband). She emails me a few times a year which can trigger me emotionally. My daughter is doing very well in school now 1st grade. She is social smiles alot is still my baby. Has great friends. My boys to are doing well. My oldest probably i have the most trouble with he was a very very sensitive child worries about everything and i think aside from my daughter was most affected by the break with my family. But even so i carry this way more than any of them seem to. It is a heavy burden an unaswered , unresolved case in that no charges were filed, or justice rendered for my daughter. I wonder if i will ever feel resolved myself. If i could not feel this burden i do. It is tiring for sure. It helps so much to come here because i know im not dealing with this alone.
I recently had something come up with my son now 10 and a friend talking about sex. It was alarming to me because he is so young and the kids including my daughter all play together. I had to have some tough talks with the mom and set some boundaries with my children. I find that i am way more ontop of these things than i might have been otherwise. The last thing i want is my daughter to be hurt again. It also reaffirmed our families no sleep over rule!!!
I am starting this thread for any parents out there struggling with their little guys talking about "wanting to die." While their lingo might be more innocent (my son states "the world hates me," "I just want to run away & never come back," "I hate everyone," "I wish I were dead," etc.) the re ality is that they are having suicidal thoughts. This could become even more dangerous as they...
This is our second Christmas without the abuser......it's so bitter sweet. I never imagined I'd be a single mother in a million years and its lonely on nights like this. On the flip side I am proud that I've pulled off another great Christmas for my kids all on my own. Can't wait for them to open all their gifts!