New to this, but relieved to hear I'm not alone! I raised 2 kids on my own (2 different dads & both dads walked at their birth). My son's dad was in & out of his life until son became suicidal in jr high and with the reccommendation of the counselor & family, we all thought it was in the best interest of my son to cut that relationship on his behalf, knowing one day he could deal with the inconsistency of his dad when he was older. My son turned 18, got out of the Navy has reconnected with his dad (I have NEVER bad-mouthed his dad, but his dad has spewed about me). My daughter was also in the Navy. They both were pretty good kids and rarely in trouble. So I must have done something right! I sacrificed ALOT for my kids, more than they will ever know!  Daugjter was graduated & son in HS when I married.  The kids loved him and grew close. Later me & hubby moved to Canada for 5 yrs and just recently moved back. Last year I found out that I had a baseball size tumor, had open chest surgery and radiation. My son showed up to the hospital and left after 15 min. I didnt see him but maybe 1ce while recovering. After helping him out for a few yrs, I decided to cut him off financially. Shortly after that is when he cut me out of his life. A few moths after that, my daughter started dating a toxic & abusive man whom she says she is so in love with & now engaged. There was alot of drama with that relationship. I told her I didnt approve...I drew the line at physical abuse! She no longer talks to me too (she says I owe her an apology??). I have gone thru some of the grieving process and now,in the angry stage. I gave my life for those kids and never considered walking away from them like their dads did. I did notbimg to deserve this treatment and am a firm believer in talking things out even if we dont agree. Holidays are really tough. I keep reminding myself that they are Gods children now, I have my life to live. I love them but owe them nothing anymore as they are adults and responsible for their own actions. Still miss them and love them dearly. Any thoughts appreciated...