Hello everyone. I'm a bit nervous about doing this, but I figure just jump in. I'm the mom of a 35 year old addict/alcoholic. His drug of choice the past several years has been herion. I've never really talked much about it. I thought maybe talking to other parents might help. I haven't seen my son in 3 years come Feb. I love my son with all my heart. I pray that someday he will come to his senses, but I'm afraid it won't happen. His health is bad and the drugs are killing him. I live in fear of the call that will tell me he is dead. A part of me is numb, but another part can never give up hope. I am raising his youngest daughter who is the spitting image of my son, except she has gray eyes. She misses having a daddy around. At almost 5 years old she knows the evils of drugs and alcohol. She says she will never do that. She was playing with her baby dolls and I heard her whispering, "I'll never get drunk and leave you". She is a child of addicts/alcoholics. She has some problems, but is very smart. I told her they loved her enough to call me to come get her and keep her safe, and taken care of. She loves me and calls me "Mom" by her choice, but I know a part of her can't understand. This is just a condensed version of my story. I hope it's not to long. I know about pain and heart break. I have put my sonin God's hands. I know I can't help him. He can only help himself. I pray for all of your families that have to deal with this.
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