I feel I am underwater as much as i try i never can get my head above it. I am new so i mostly want to get this off my chest but also need advice so i might sound like I am rambling. I am 19yrs old i fell at work tore my minicus in my knee threw bloodclot. I am gaurdian of two of my cousins Naomi who is 9yrs and amoni who is going on 2yrs. Their mother is dying of type 4 lung cancer she never smoked or hardly ever been sick. anyways my mother is suffering with ministrokes so the court wouldn't allow her have custody of the kids so i stepped in. I live with my parents my dad works long hours., my mom has her good day and bad and now lost her part time job her employers going out of business. i am on disibilities checks as my mother is as well. plus with 2 kids now i am diagnosed with Lupus. i feel like i am being pulled in every direction. I am mostly worried about 9yr old naomi her mom is dying up in cancer ward in another state. her real father is jail/drugs and her step father only cares about amoni his real child doesn't want anything to do with naomi. What am suppose to do or even say? her mom is dying, her step-father doesn't want her, sometimes on bad days she is taking care of my mother, plus deal with her lil sister, she know medically something is up with me, and her grades are slipping. So far were the only family who can afford to feed her right now. I mean she be 10yrs old soon and has to share a queen size bed with me. she has no room for herself. I am REALLY worried about her grades. she is really smart and i tried councling it doesn't work.
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