I have suspected I have some form of PPD for a while now, and last week I booked an appointment with my doctor to discuss it. However, now it is the day before my scheduled appointment and I am freaking out, I don't think I can talk to her about it. It took me a long time to admit half of my feelings to myself let alone anyone else. Only my partner and my mother know how I feel and the thought of telling my GP scares the hell out of me. It sounds silly but the thought of her watching me as aI say it all- and I know for sure I will crack and start crying (I HATE crying infront of anyone let alone a doctor). Some of the things I feel are so horrible and selfish it'd going to be really hard to admit them, sometimes I think it is just that I'm selfish and it's not PPD at all. My other big concern is that this will go against me in any future court proceedings with my baby's father. I know most of the time anything you discuss with a doctor is confidential but this is at their discretion. I've been to counselling during my pregnancy and aside from that and medication (which I don't want or feel I need) I wonder what else they can do, therefore if I should risk it. If anyone can help me at all I would strongly appreciate it, I need all the support I can get...
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??