It's about 5 am right now. I woke up around 3, but haven't been able to fall back asleep. I just sort of wanted to share what my life is like inside my brain though, and wanted to see if anyone else can relate to me.
So essentially, I have 2 different voices inside of my head. One is the truth, knows what is right and wrong, what did or didn't happen, etc. and the other is evil, almost devilish and tells lies about those truths. That they either aren't true, I'm in denial that something that happened that is bad actually happened and I'm just excusing it as something minor, or something like that. Basically, this other voice escalates every mistake that I've ever made, and makes me feel extremely guilty for it, whether it was a minor mistake or not. And that, in turn, makes me feel like a bad person in general. So I am constantly battling myself here. Does anyone else have these issues?
Hello evceryoneI can not stand that everyday of my life I am paranoid. It is more so about my husband and kids and then of course thinking my friends are really plotting against me. I dont know what to do I hate this feeling and it is like everyday it gets even worse.
I feel like everyone i talk to or come across is out to get me somehow? Like theyll screenshot our text conversations and use them against me?? Even if its just a normal conversation?