let me start out with I have not been diagnoused but i feel as if i have a problem
i am always thinking of the worst thing that can happen and i cant even sleep with my lights off without wanting to cry and sometimes i feel crazy because sometimes i feel like i see or hear things but im pretty sure its in my head because it happens alot when im alone but i get so scared when im alone and talking about this makes my stomach get all wacky and my hands shake but i feel the need to share stopping tho probaly i know it sounds weird but i dunno i just get so omg and scared
i didnt want to post yday about it because i wanted to try not think about it. I had my 2nd smear test today. Ive been putting it off for last 3 months. But they kept sending me reminder letters. I had it just now, i feel like i want to cry but holding it together. The nurse was amazing. She knows im a bit of a troubled paitent with issues. She explained everything she was doing, she asked if...
It's 2am and my mind keeps racing. I have even more anxiety than usual. I'm worried because i only have things to dread in the future. Nothing to look forward to, just more loss and greater loneliness. I feel sick. I'm also discouraged i gained weight, despite walking. i still weigh the same as when i started that thread. idk why i get up in the mornings at all.