So, I'm 22 years old, just graduated college and I'm not sure if I have severe anxiety or depression of some sort or if I'm downright paranoid. I think that I am paranoid because starting about a year ago I started convincing myself that the people around me/friends/family/people I meet all think I'm some loser and all only hangout with me to test me.... I know that's probably irrational, and I try not to let it get to me. It almost feels like a conspiracy, like everyone is in on something that I'm not. Sometimes I go to shows/music festivals and think that I've been set up to feel stupid and that it's all fake, sometimes I actually end up leaving because I can't even enjoy myself. Is this a common theme in people with paranoia? I know for sure that I have anxiety because I definitely psychoanalyze situations/people and get extremely nervous that someone close to me may die or weird scenarios that I know are out of my control and are silly to worry about on a normal basis. I have compared schitzophrenia and paranoia and do not think I am schitzophrenic because I don't see/hear things that aren't there or a lot of the other extreme symptoms associated, but I do think I'm living with paranoia, I actually hope that the thoughts I have aren't true, but it's hard to tell now that I've allowed these thoughts for so long. It's hard to start this new chapter of my life feeling like a loser, even though I know I'm surrounded by good people. I now get very down on myself and start to question my abilities and my personality. I am hoping that beginning a healthier lifestyle/ maybe incorporating mediation and yoga will help me. I've been trying to accept myself more lately, and struggle. I haven't talked with anyone about this because it's hard to understand if you haven't experienced it. I feel like I'm incapable of just being normal. I've become more introverted than ever, and I want more than anything to have a healthy mindset again. Help, please! What is going on with me? Quarter life identity crisis? How do I become more full and happy again? I don't want to have to take drugs or go to a doctor for these problems if I don't have to.
Hello evceryoneI can not stand that everyday of my life I am paranoid. It is more so about my husband and kids and then of course thinking my friends are really plotting against me. I dont know what to do I hate this feeling and it is like everyday it gets even worse.
I feel like everyone i talk to or come across is out to get me somehow? Like theyll screenshot our text conversations and use them against me?? Even if its just a normal conversation?