Woke up in a full blow panic attack. I couldnt catch my breath my body was tingling all over and the thoughts statted pouring in. I eventually was able to calm myself and go to the store but at the time I was sure I was going to have to go to the E.R its been so long since I suffered an attack so Intense but I know I have been under alot of stress in my love life and worklife prior to this it had been ages since I have suffered I am not on any medications but I bought some supplements at the store. when I first discovered I had anxiety and panic disorder I was a mess severe anxiety and multiple panic attacks ruled my life on a daily basis to the point I was so mentaly exhausted I became deralized I am so scared to go back to that place and I know that fear is fueling my anxiety and panic but it was such dark times I gained 60lbs in a year cried all day was up all night and now I have acquired a fear of becoming suicidal and depressed which I know is a new irrational fear of my which I had many previously and although I know its irrational when those thoughts come they envelope me at least for a short period of time to the point it becomes overwhelmingly unbearable
I work a lot of hours. So I am not on here as much . Be time I am dun with work all I want to to is come home relax & sleep . On my feet a lot .My man got me a bike so that helps me get to work instead of walking . Lest my works only one mile away . Today putting in a 8 hours shift. I only got one day off this week . So going to be really tired . Hope everyone is doing well & thank u everyone...
I started my job the 16th & been working every day. Have not had a day off yet . But I been doing really good . No anxiety attacks . I like my job keeps me busy & I am making money. My husband also works there the night shift so we don't see each other that much . When I get home I am so tired I just go to bed . But happy I got a job. & hey it's money .Another day of work today.