I started having some bad attacks a few years ago, when I quit my job. Since then I have basically been around my girlfriend and my kids and family. I work, but there is only one other guy there and hes an ass, so we dont speak. I started going to school again recently and I find that when I am allmost there I start sweating and feel like I have to pee really bad, my heart feels like its going to explode and that is all before I even get out of my car. When I am walking to my class I feel like everyone is staring at me, judging me and laughing or being disgusted by me. My teachers think I am strange because I am the only one in my class that doesnt speak but it scares the hell out of me to talk. I am soooo scared of talking to people trying to make friends because I think they will reject me. I really dont want to go to a doctor out of fear that my girl will leave me because I am not normal. I dont want to be on medication because I dont want my kids to have a father like that. I need some sort of help, if anyone has any advice please tell me what to do. I feel like I am about ready to lose my family, a potential career because of this
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