Ok so I just found this site today and boy do I wish I would have happened upon it much sooner than this. Had my first panic attack right before graduating high school and of course I thought, no I knew something was wrong with me. Nobody seemed to understand me at all, my mom was sure that I was doing hardcore drugs, my aunt thought I was making it up, everyone seemed to just expect me to get over it. The summer after graduating was total hell for me, I was afraid to leave the house, I was afraid to eat sometimes, every little headache, cramp, dizzy spell I had I just knew there was some serious disease that was going to kill me! Haha, I went to the extreme with every symptom, if I had a headache I knew i had a brain tumor, if i got dizzy that meant my heart was going out....I got so bad that I decided that my anxiety was being caused by thyroid, heart or lung disease so I went to the doctor and had all kinds of tests done just to be told that I was in fact physically healthy. I ended up starting college that fall and slowly the panic attacks got further apart of course the daily anxiety never completely left me but things did start to get better, I moved a couple of times and each move the anxiety would peak for a few months and slowly dissipate. Now it has been about 6 months since I've had a full blown panic attack until two weeks ago I'm driving to meet with a career counselor and the scariest freaking attack hit me, compete with chest pain, tingly hands, shortness of breath, nothing felt real but I knew I was going to die any moment and of course every since then my anxiety has seemed to come back almost full force. Haha I'm actually starting to tear up just thinking about how futile it seems, I absolutely hate this disease I wish I could just be "normal" but I know that's not possible I will never be fully rid of this, but it's nice to know there are plently of people who at least know what I'm going through. Whew sorry about the lengthy post, just needed to get something out.
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