I am 55 years old and had panic in my 20's for awhile.. I lived a half way normal life up until 10 years ago with just some minor anxiety problems in certain situation...I always knew its was there lingering when I was put in situation where I was uncomfortable but seemed to manage them... I had some health problems ( 3 hernia surgeries ) and also had a pulmonary embolism following the last surgery....My panic came back with a vengeance... Major attacks, constant anxiety all the time....During the course of the next 3 years I tried to deal with them but pushing the feelings back, ignoring them, fighting them, not talking to any one about them...It got so bad that my life began to get smaller and smaller....There was no safe place or person that helped....I was waking up at night in full blown attacks....I really believed that I was going nuts..... I was having my wife take me to the er all the time....I was having all the symptoms that were related with the constant anxiety..... feeling to flee....racing thoughts, derealization, air hunger, ect.... I was looking at all these as many problems and later in my recovery I would realize it was only 1 problem causing all the symptoms.... I began to reach out and learn all I could about PD... I order books, tapes and then got into a good support group...I got a good doctor and began on meds.... The meds held me to get grounded so I could start to absorbed the information and put it to use...I slowly began to step out facing my fears and avoidances....I kept a journal to log my experiences and feelings....I began to see and understand the cycle of the disorder...The first thing to leave me was the actual Panic Attacks....Because I knew what they were and what to expect from them...SO because I didn't fear then they left....I was still having ongoing anxiety all the time...I began to learn to trust myself, working on positive thinking and when I had a down day, that's all it was...We tend to have a bad day then because of our past memories our thinking will try to deceive us into thinking we didn't have periods of good times....This is a deception of the past thinking....I continued to stay positive and learned from each experiences...My perception began to change then seeing the results I began to gain more confidence within my self...All the symptoms were leaving and I knew I had found the answer for recovery....I have recovery now but still respect Panic.... I have become a better person having gone through this because it made me change many behaviors that contributed to the anxiety life....I continue to work on staying positive changing behaviors in my life and life is good again....Hope this helps....Doug
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