i live so much in fear. im scared of just about everything. my parents don't understand how hard it is for me to do the littlest things. such as going to the grocery store, or even opening a door. but the thing i get the most panic attacks from is driving. i live in a small town so driving here is ok, but going over 25 scares me, but i have gotten a lil more use to that. but i do not want to drive in a bigger town. i actually do not even want to go to college just becuz i don't want to drive. i have little attacks and i have big attacks. i get extremely dizzy and shake really bad. its extremely hard to think, to the point that i jus completely shut everyone out and i don't answer questions i don't even answer when they ask what's wrong becuz its like i can't. sometimes i feel like i am going insane or that im dying. i have no idea how to stop these from happening. and they have really been getting in the way. i usually just avoid anything that causes them which means most of the time i sit in my house. but lately i have been forcing myself to do everything cuz i know that i can't live in fear forever...but instead of that making it better its jus making it worse way worse. i don't know what to do plz help. and i cannot go to the doctor cuz my parents refuse to take me...so if anyone has anything i can do on my own plz help!
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