I dont know what to say but I feel like I must write something to slow down my mind. I am listening to Evanescense. Music usually helps calm me down but I think I am going to try something a little slower like Kenny G. I hate these attacks. I spent thirty years of my life in a deep depression and I pulled out of it some months ago and now I have to fight theses damned attacks. It is not fair!!!!!!! I know that I am all over the place and I probably am not making any sense but maybe writing to the rest of you will help. I live in a small town. Less than 2500 and there is little support here. Hell I can feel my heart in my throat right now. I guess that I will have to suffer until the valium kicks in. I'll know it is kicking in when I get sleepy. Actually it puts me to sleep. So what am I supposed to do? Sleep the rest of my life away? I think not. Oh well. I am sorry for ranting but I got nowhere's else to turn.
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