Hi all. I'm on the right medication which eliminates my panic attacks in the daytime, but I have a problem at night when I'm driving back from a friend's house. We play poker at his house one night a week. He lives in a nearby city. I drive there alone. The game usually runs pretty late. I drink coffee to stay awake. The adrenaline runs high. Sometimes people get mad when they lose. I'm OK when driving through the city, where people are still awake, walking, and driving their cars. I start to get freaky when I hit the part of the drive where everyone is tucked in and asleep and there's no one driving or walking. I am a bad driver when I'm panicked. I just want to get home and I drive too fast. I don't feel like I'm a rational person when I'm having an attack. Does anyone else ever feel this way? Like you're sort of insane? I'm totally sane and normal at my game with friends and when I get home, but during that one part of the ride I panic and even find myself saying "help help" in the car. My plan is to stop driving to the game for now. I'm going to re-expose myself to driving this route over and over again in the daytime, then at night without coffee and the late night game. I'm going to beef up my exercise routine and relaxation. I may also take a yoga class. Then when I feel like I have the drive down at night, I will only go for a couple of hours, but it gets me mad. Everyone else has no problem and I love to play. It feels very unfair that I'm stuck with this problem, but at the same time I feel extremely fortunate that I finally found the right doctor to help me a few years ago. Anyone else have a problem driving through a "deserted" area. It's not like I live in the outback or anything. People are just asleep.
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