I do. I can't believe that this is a daily battle. If I broke my leg I would have a month or so and then I would be better. This is nothing like a physical illness or injury, yet it affects us physically. I have no hope to believe that I will ever be better. I think it is the worst of human conditions, to be without hope. But the idea of this battle continuing on each day is overwhelming, crushing. I have dealt with so many hard things in my life (physical abuse, sexual abuse, 2 miscarriages) why can't I beat this? I have never contemplated suicide before, and it has been crossing my mind over the past 2 days. What is that about? Has anyone experienced this? Thanks for the responses --- Julia
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