Wow! I've finally found a place to ask the questions that have been bothering me for so long. I have a strange type of anxiety (at least I think it's strange). I wouldn't classify myself as an "anxious person" but growing up I was diagnosed with gastritis or stomach ulcers and Irritible Bowel Syndrome. Supposedly these were caused by stress factors at home (alcoholic/drug addicted father, younger brother with severe cerebral palsy). Now that I am older I am finding that I have severe anxiety about certain situations in which I have no real reason to feel anxious. This, of course causes my IBS to flare up and among other things, it's very distressing to not know the reasoning or cause behind such anxiety. For one, I am not able to sleep when I have my alarm set (either for work or class). I wake up super early and the anxiety hits me *WHAM* If I am "lucky" enough to fall back asleep it's only for about 20 minutes at the most and this continues until I drag myself out of bed. Once I get on the road and get my day started I'm fine...very confused about all this. But forget about the anxiety for a moment and lets talk about crying. Everyone cries every now and then right? Well for me crying is something I have no control over. I'll be talking to my boss about an issue (something very minor) at work and I will feel my throat close up and I'll begin to cry. I cry at almost anything that causes me anxiety, in the most inconvenient places, at the worst times. I cry if I'm yelled at, if I'm angry, and sometimes I just cry and I don't even know what's triggering it. Please tell me I'm not the only one out there with this crying thing...I know I need professional therapy but without insurance that is not an option at the moment. I thought maybe I would get on here and just chat with some of you lovely people :) I'm not looking to solve all my issues, I'm just looking for some people to chat with and share experiences. If anyone has any input, any questions, suggestions, or even if you think I could help YOU out give me a shout.
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