Ok this has been a very emotional month, first of all it started with one of my aunts in the icu and not expected to live, I wasent close to this aunt much but she is my mom's sisters so i do anything for mom. My husband picked them up from florida and we were gonna leave that day for New York to see the aunt. well the day we were suppose to leave i busted my right ankle and the paramedics had to come get me. SO the day we leave i get put on bed rest off my foot. we left for new york the next morrning and i slept all the way there due to the pain pills knocking me out. we get to new york i fall going into my cousins house and hurt my same foot again, went to er and got it rechecked, no sooner did i get back to my cousins house we get a call from her moms boyfriend saying we need to get down there the paramedics are working on her, by time we get to the hospital my favorit aunt the on i was very close to had passed away. and ontop of it all my cousins boyfriend that lives with her is a guy the sexual abused me several times, no on knows but my theripist so the panic attacs start in very heavy the day of the funeral I had at least 20 panic attacks in the matter of about 4 days. THEN I get sicker then a dog with a 105 fever that just wont go away so when i got home i went to the er and just about passed out walking in because my fever was so high, when the took it it was 106 so they imm give me tyonale,chest xray and abdomine xray. come to find out that i had a very sever bladder ifection and after 2 rounds of anitbiotics I still have it and now i am on round 3 of the antibiotics. I am still on bed rest due to my food over a month and half later and panic attacks still getting worse and the kolonipin doc put me 3 times a day not working. and i am seeing a theripst now for all my underlying problems but it's a long drive and with my panic attcks getting worse as they have i had to pull off side of road due to a very hard hitting panic attac, i have to take freeway to get to the doc's office in antoher state that's only about 20 miles away. CAN ANYONE HELP ME FIND OTHER WAYS TO CONTROL THESE ATTACKS PLEASE,THANKS.
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