So..Im leaving for a few days today for the holiday with H.. Ya know, I used to be so excited about these little trips we\'d take together. My favorite was the car ride.. Just me and him for a few hours, listening to music, each other, and the scenery...Just enjoying that time. Now, I think about the empty conversations, the emotionless holding of the hands, just the music on, b/c thats still the only thing we have in common.. well, and the Yankees of course. I miss the old us, But I feel that it has been gone so long, and we\'ve became \"friends\"...He wanted to have sex last night.. I just couldnt bring myself to do it. I read some of your other posts,and its the opposite for the person who committed the crime, that the H/W WONT have sex... and Im different, he\'s different. I dont want it... with him at least...How do I go back? Can I rewind and be head over heals in love with my H again? I wish I could gather those feelings back. There not even in sight any longer. hummmm.. what a silly little life im living. Anyway, just needed to vent I suppose. Off to a 3 hour drive of awkward silence. Happy and Safe 4th to All on DS.
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