The e-mail I recieved yesterday has completely destroyed me. I called him to ask if he wrote it and he said he did but i really, really doubt it. I believe she wrote it, I know about the affair so now she wants me OUT of the picture. If she wrote it but he saw it he is just as crappy as she is. The part that destroyed me is "I only stayed with you in the seperation so I could see Ari and you know that!" No, I didn't know that. If you are so in love with this woman, that she has made you a new man what are you doing having sex with me, your wife? and going to counseling? and texting me daily and calling me daily? Denying your relationship, the true love in your heart? the woman you trust and can be whole with??? WHY??? I am so sick to my stomach, I can't understand why he is letting this happen. He husband is not this way, his mean is "I want you out of my f-ing life!" not all sappy and I love her with all my heart crap! I emailed him and said if his intentions was to hurt me it worked. I want a divorce and can he just sign papers I prepare online so we can get this over with! He has never admitted the affair until now and never mentions divorce at all. I just want to vomit and go home but I am stuck at work and can't function. I just want off this planet and out of my life for good!