I feel like I'm set up for failure I had to file a chapter 51 on my son for violence and trying to kill himself and now i'm jumping through the loop holes of the government it's to the point of it being hopeless it's like a circus i have 5 social workers 1 psychatrist 3 counslors and 2 in home therapist and eveyone wants me to act a certain way with him and its not natural i just wish i could tell him i love him but see if i do than he acts like that is a weakness and prays upon that and then i have 5 other kids who need a moms love in a normal way and a marriage that my husband wants to be on valum just to live in this home this is his step son and he acts like my son is a juvenile delinquent and that he does this on purpose and says things like im going to kill you and then that makes my husband furious and he feels like he has to protect me from my own son. we are so broke all the time their is never any money and my husband and i work full time jobs i have no clue where to turn or even write this . I feel alone and so stressed out i have no family not even grandparents or siblings i'm truly alone a home is suppose to be a safe place away from this crazy world and it's the scariest place to be for everyone not only that but this kid also has tourrettes so it's like reasoning with a maddddd man. my husband says how do you keep the other kids from picking up on his bad behavior? I really don't see much hope at all anywhere i'm in counsling once a week and to be honest that don't help much. I feel as if my worst nightmares have come true or this is one heck of a test of faith.
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