Well, today was the worst day yet. I felt really bad today. Some of you may have read some of my posts before and know that I have a fear of suicide that has become an obsession. Today I was really discouraged and just felt like I can't do this anymore and that kicked in the suicide obsession really bad and I am a nervous wreck. I kept wanting to go hospitalize myself just to feel safe, but I know that's just a reassurance thing. I just want to feel safe again. I don't know how. =( P.S. I don't want to kill myself!
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