I have been battling OCD since i was 16, it used to be so much worse than now though it still controls my life. I used to spend hours checking things, counting things, stroking switches and window locks, washing my hands until they bled, becoming paranoid over my own thoughts. I am better than i was but i am so sick of it controlling me, i feel pathetic and ashamed, even worse i think im sabotaging a relationship with someone who means everything to me. I have never seen a professional about it, but i have talked to others, but they have never had OCD, and it's impossible to explain to someone why you can't stop doing something, because even I don't know why. I want to go cold turkey and stop all my little rituals, as cutting down hasn't helped really as i still do it? Has anyone ever tryed it?
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