i hate it when i have to check my doors and windows when i go out. i just tell my friends that i'm paranoid.

It would have to be the shame of the day, actually. The shame du jour. Ha. Let's see. My fascination with illicit sex would have to be one. Hiding an eating disorder is pretty high on the list. Saying aloud absolutely anything that pops into my head comes to mind. Oh, yeah. You just wanted one. Sorry.

And can I add that I usually do pretty well with the whole shame thing. Most of the time, I can remember where all of this is comng from and be OK with myself. It's just when everything else is crashing down. Gets tougher then.

Pretty much any of the usual OCD stuff when other people are watching, especially the ones in which I have to count while doing it; I look like a complete fool.

For me it would have to be the clutter in my apartment. When I am stressed or anxious I feel better when I 'collect' things, but then I don't want anyone coming to visit as it's a veritable pig-sty!

I don't know if it's what I'm most ashamed of, but I really regret the way I've wasted so much of my life on various obsessions and paranoia, so that I don't have a whole lot of accomplishments to show for it. At least, not in the "workplace." I did write five novels and painted I don't know how many paintings, but have very little work history and might have accomplished a lot more "if I knew then what I do now" and could have done things differently, and gone on medication sooner.

I thought I might add this comment: I wish there were more words we could use to express strong emotion, that were "cool" to use, and that didn't offend anyone including God. Our language just wasn't developed that way, unfortunately.

I am ashamed of having ocd.

ahhh im ashamed of the times when ive been so scared of touching people that ive not even let my mummy give me a cuddle.

Im ashamed of my coping skill for my OCD things. I use avodiance as a tool in OCD and BP situations. It has lead to lack of friends and family support. I am learning to stop avoiding the triggers and learn where to draw lines.

I am also ashamed when I go to the sub shop and have to tell the EXACTLY how to make my sandwich. I cant NOT stand when the dressings touch the meat... they must go on the bread and then the cheese on the dressings THEN the meat and veggies... I even have to have the meat on one side and the veggies on the other side of the hoggie roll befor they close it or I have extream anxiety and often wont even eat the sandwich. Thank god I only go to one sub shop and they are use to me.

Mine would be the ulmighty nail biting. Yeah, that sound so little but since childhood I have done it. I litterally have some gross un~nails. I am a cashier and I have to watch the customers look at them and a few even comment on them. They are absolutely yucky. I cant stop. It is very obsessive.

I do the nail biting too.. and then I actually 'play' with them and use them like floss for DAYS... I dont usually go a day where I dont have a nail to fidget with. WHen I cant fidget my hands /legs/tapp feet ect I bite off a nail and 'play with it'. I dont have super clean nails my self so ya its pretty gross Ive done it from child hood. And actually when I think about it I am rather obsessive about it but not with any bad anxiets if I dont have one to fidget with.

What really bugs me is my daughter whi is 3 this month is already a nail bitter... fingers and toes to the point of making them hurt... I know with age she wont (I hope) be able to bite her toe nails but I do worry that she will have this habbit of mine for a life time.

Oh and I do substitue odd things to 'fidget' with if I dont ahve a nail to bite...

when i read your response MyJesus i thought wow what a thing to be ashamed of cussing with your handle name...but my hubby uses the F--k work all the time no matter what for when he is upset it comes out...

My most embarrasing thing is when i am out in public i stare at ppl till they look the other way. Have no idea why i do this but i just do.

You stare at people, Flutter? That's actually kind of funny. I think I saw you in a restaurant the other day. LOL.

me the nail biter...i hear ya on the cussing part.. I am obsessive about cussing. I dont, wont , cant, shant, cuss. I got in some how wedged in my head that If i do I will loose my first born.. let me explain.. I made a promise to GOD in heaven while I was pregnant.(I was a baddd cusser then) That if my baby would be born a healthy baby that I would never cuss agian.. My real obsession is that I can not break a promise. Espiceally to God, ya know. If I promise it is that. I have funny weird stuff like that about me. Bad thing is like "flutter" said.. My x husband used the F word as an adjective in every sentence. Seemed to hurt my ears. "The f'ing red truck" or "The f'ing house was full of f'ing furniture." It was so bad. My present husband says the occasionall bad word but I can handle that. Anybody else have crazy mental obsessions like me. I cant even say words like pooh, or the water darn. I say lets all go fishing at the darn. I know its crazy but it is so true. PS. my nails stay painful. You should really see them right now. I was so hard on them today at work. lol Looking forward to read more on this one!!!!