So I have had OCD for several years and when my daughter was born I had to deal with the sexual ITs. I would be scared I wiped her inappropriately or random things like that. Well I have been doing well for a few years now until a few weeks ago. I stopped my meds because I thought "I was fine". Well she is older now and came to me and said mommy I'm itchy. Of course in her private area. It looked a lil red so I wiped her and was going to put some cream on her. I only wiped her once and it lasted all of a second or two. At the very end of the wipe I got some sort of freak thought like I was doing it inappropriately and I freaked out. I have been in a bad depression and anxiety since then. Can't eat or function I feel like I have violated my sweet girl somehow. I know it's just a thought but it happened while I was wiping her so makes me feel like I acted on it! Leaving doctors now to get back on my meds but I am one broken hearted mama
I was involved in a car accident, and my Doctor has diagnosed me with Trigeminal Neuralgia as a result of the injuries. I have yet to see a Neurologist, and I'm taking Lyrica (only) to "dial down the pain". It's good to find people with similar experiences, as TN is a lonely disease as few seem to understand it.
At this pony, I just feel like I’m a failure & I’m hopeless. I’m doing horrible in school, I can’t get a job after applying to about 25 places. I’m tired of asking my dad for money. I feel so pathetic. I’m angry all the time, sad, bitter, and resentful. I the smile and happiness I put on for people was true. My heart aches from past pain that I still try to get over. I don’t talk...