So I have had OCD for several years and when my daughter was born I had to deal with the sexual ITs. I would be scared I wiped her inappropriately or random things like that. Well I have been doing well for a few years now until a few weeks ago. I stopped my meds because I thought "I was fine". Well she is older now and came to me and said mommy I'm itchy. Of course in her private area. It looked a lil red so I wiped her and was going to put some cream on her. I only wiped her once and it lasted all of a second or two. At the very end of the wipe I got some sort of freak thought like I was doing it inappropriately and I freaked out. I have been in a bad depression and anxiety since then. Can't eat or function I feel like I have violated my sweet girl somehow. I know it's just a thought but it happened while I was wiping her so makes me feel like I acted on it! Leaving doctors now to get back on my meds but I am one broken hearted mama
Sometimes it would be nice. Nice to hear from my friends "i love you" to get hugged by them, you guys can't even imagine how much i value hugs. to see them care for me, sometimes i would just like to hear "don't worrry, everything will be alright, im by your side always, i love you". Even from my parents it would be nice to hear that, but Instead i get hate from themfor not bein what they want me...
Thank you to any members who might have stuck by me and are still in this group. Please reply if you read this. Thank you :)