I feel terrible because well, because a few days ago I set a date to end my life. Since then, Ive had friend after friend, and even people I dont know pleading for me not to. Its just so hard, and now I dont want to hurt anyone but Im still in the same situation with my life, so now I feel really stressed and my OCD is so playing up. I have had to clean my entire house three times already today, as well as all my other rituals. And I have literally scrubbed myself red raw but I still feel rotten. Its driving me nuts, and coz of my schizophrenia, I have been having trouble with all that crap too. Im just so stressed and have to vent a bit. Im sorry if this upsets anyone, that would be the last thing I want is to cause any trouble for anyone else. I just had to whinge.
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