so this is my first post here. About a year ago I started to have problems driving. I’d been in the military for 8 years and just got out the year before and I always worked late. I’d be driving home and hear a bump in the road and turn around to see what it was. This progressed into ruining a vacation and I drove to Pensacola in November to see my old college and I ended up spending 90% of my vacation driving in circles. I was promoted at my Job in December and sent back on the road. It was horrible..some nights a 30 minute drive in my tiny Honda Accord took 12, I ran out of gas, someone brought me gas, then I called for help 2 hours later.
I was miserable and life sucked despite getting a 10k a year raise on my first try. I was constantly feeling I had to go back and check every thing “just to make sure”. It progressively got worse. I stopped driving my new truck (Toyota 4runner) because I was scared to do so. I bought a motorcycle so I could get around town more and I can BUT I still end up riding (or driving) in circles because of the thought of myself being discharged out of the military and fired from my job..my mugshot being shown as the person who hit and drove off after an accident. My heart nearly explodes because I will pass someone on my bike going home and I will begin to look back. Then some more. And then the panic sets in “what if I brushed that person on my bike? I’m going to lose everything!”.
I went to a doctor that the company paid for 4 times then tried another doc for a few months. He didn’t think it’s OCD but I believe it is. The original doc said it was. I know it is. It still takes 2 hours to get home sometimes when it should be a 30 minute ride. As it stands now I work overnights. I will wait until everyone leaves super early then I will park my bike up front right by the road. I’ll leave 45 minutes before everyone starts to get to work to try and hide it. I’ll ride to the end of the road right before the highway, park, then walk back and make sure everything’s ok.
Life sucks..I would love to start driving my new truck in 20 degree weather instead of my bike. How can I overcome this?
Hi, I'm new to this. I am 24 with a beautiful 8 year old daughter.. about a year ago one day sat in my living room my body became paralyzed and my mind had been completely taken over by intrusive thoughts.. it got so bad I couldn't even look at my daughter any more. I went to the doctors and a few days later I was diagnosed with intrusive thoughts OCD and sent home with a booklet to "help" me......