i cant control my thoughts today they are wild i am so sick of them it like they go i acept them then i just think is is wrong to say it is ok to think like that i have a urge to do it dotor said it is a comepulion and it come with the thoughts but then u get anxiety because u are scarded your body goin to lose control i feel so scard it has got bad lately cause i grandad done somethink bad and he is in prison and i think he might of had this thats why he done it i dont no just scard what if i am like hime and i hurt someone i love what makes me so dif then him he was a nice person u would not think he did what he did he did it when he had a drink and i did not find out till lately i dont no i love my family and my kids if i ever feel like i will do it i will kill myself before i hurt my children i am goin back to doctors tommow want to see my theoreys again sorry about spelling i have dislexer please let me know what u think
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