I dont understand why he is so hard on me. I mean I know I should have cleaned and not been such a brat, but what he did was just cruel. Does he even understand how much it bothers me? People might think that Im crazy because a towel was on my bed so I had to throw my sheets away, but he knew I would flip out. Sometimes I think my dad is just looking for a fight. I really wish he understood how hard things are for me. Sure I have a home and family that loves me, and a good education. But sometimes I would throw that all away just to be a normal person. I mean sometimes I just want to lock myself up and throw away the key.. Why I have to be born like this? What did I ever do to piss the universe off? I feel like a freak of nature sometimes! I cant touch things that have been all over in grass and mud and other things, I cant touch people without washing my hands afterwards, and I cant even pet my own dog. I wish my dad really could understand the severity of my OCD. He sees it as something easy to deal with like allergies, or a cold. But its not. It is a struggle everyday for me even with medication. I wish my Dad could see that. Does anyone know how I could better educate him on OCD?
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