Hi. Im Omar and I have been having issues with OCD and Anxiety since Dec. 25, 2008. My story begins on Christams Day when I decided to check out some info on Ted Bundy and other Serial Killers. I read about the horrible and scary things they did to their victims. I was already scared enough, and my dumb self clicked on a link to view imaged of their victims. I saw the MOST DISTURBING and HORRIBLE picture I have ever seen. I immideatly closed the Web and had my first panic attack. One thing that really scares me is that I was a big fan of the Halloween Film series, you know the Michael Myers ones. I listen to Eminem and Marilyn Manson. So my BIGGEST FEAR is that since I listen to these artists and watch slasher movies, that I might get influenced to Kill someone or torture them. I have never had a craving to kill someone or nuthin like that. But I start asking myself, what if in the future I start likeing it or want ot murder someone. Halloween was my favorite holiday, now im scared shitless of it and horror movies like Halloweens and Hostel and Saw. Even when Im alone with someone I fear I might kill them or do something to them. I never had an unhappy childhood. I never was abused and I have everything I could ever want. I just keep thinking "What if I just SNAP and go kill someone. Please help me out. I hate these feelings and thoughts. PLEASE.
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