I thought I was over all of this obsessive compulsive stuff and that I could start all over with a new life. But now I'm not sure. I mean, it's not as bad as it used to be, but I still do things and think about things in a crazy way. What if my medicine isn't working? Does it ever fully go away or does it just get a little better? Like yesterday, my period was late and I got all obsessed with possibly being pregnant and just went wild with worry and excitement. I was looking at cribs and baby things on the internet and in the stores! I'm not pregnant, it turns out, and now I'm looking back at how I was thinking about how great it would be, yesterday, and I feel like I had morphed into a different person between then and now. My husband couldn't be any more convinced that having another baby would not be a good thing right now, the way I went over board with this. I've been trying hard to show him that I've changed and that I'm not as nutty as I used to be. And then this happened. What in the world? Anyone else take Depekane for this, by the way? How can I get him to see that I just got a little excited about the possibility?
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