I never thought I would be writing entries in a forum, but I feel I have expended almost all other avenues at feeling better. The worst part about this is the uncertainty and instability I never know when I will feel ok and be productive or feel horrible and not be able to face the world! This makes it really difficult to plan anything from a night out to rest of my life. I have suffered with OCD since I can remember (although I was 32 years old before being diagnosed) and various degrees of depression and anxiety. At this point I am certain these conditions are all connected. Lets face it, OCD IS an anxiety disorder and suffering the debilitating effects of OCD for many years can certainly lead to depression. This morning I really hit bottom I felt so defective and so alone. Unfortunately, my family (parents and siblings) are not very sympathetic. We are not allowed to have issues in my family; Therefore, I have no family support system. My family and people I know would rather chastise someone for being different than try to help them. I have really kept all of this in my whole life because, short of a few select people, I have not been able to open up I feel so embarrassed and ashamed by this. I guess I really need to see that I am not alone. I am hoping that writing about this (which I have never done) and communicating with others that understand what I am going through will be therapeutic in some way. Please share your stories with me!
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