I have ocd and have a new obsession. My husband and I are very close and spend a lot of rtime together. I just recently overcame an obsession where I felt I needed to tell him everything I do (ie private intimate things). The other day after I did a private intimate thing and after was clearing my browser history and he asked me what I was doing (he was watching tv doing his own thing etc). Anyway we both do this to each other - when we are on the computer or phone etc asking the other what the other is doing etc. For example he just asked what I was doing and I said writing on a forum which I am just not the one I'm usually on but its still a forum. When he asked what I was doing when I was clearing my history I said nothing like people do when they are doing saomething insignficant or private etc. He said you must be doing something and at that point I was basically done and I said I was shutting down which I did. I guess I feel very guilty for fibbing to him but I would like to keep my privacy without making it a big deal as well. I know it isn't a big deal and I think that he provavly fibs to me in the same way when its something that doesn't hurt or really affect me, etc. I start to think if something happened to him would I feel guilty etc. I know this isn't a big deal and I'm allowed to have privacy even though I'm married. Or then I think about if its wrong to do religiously which is a whole other thing but I know this is very insignificant and ok and I have good reason. Anyway, sorry this is so long. I've been carrying this obsession around for a few days and I am having a hard time letting go. I go back and forth between its ok to not confess/tell him and ill tell him soon when the time is right. I know ill feel better if I tell him but I guess I'd like to not tell him and feel better anyway. I'm hoping someone has a similar obsession and or can offer advice. Am I horrible to fib to my husband? Fact is I know stuff like this is going to happen in our lives as we are close and spend so much time together. I'm going to try to do things that I want to be private when I'm alone, but it still might happen from time to time. Am I horrible?
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