Ok, so this is my first posting here. I haven't been to the dr or anything, so i thought i'd start here. And i'm also not officially diagnosed with OCD, but i would greatly appreciate anyone to read this and let me know what u think. i'm almost 100% confident that i have partial ocd...not full fledged. but there is something not right. for the past 3 or more years, i've been having certain symptoms. i have a thing about numbers and touching things a certain amt of times. a few examples...almost everything i do, i count in 4's. like it has to be an even #. to be more specific, if i'm on the computer and i'm scrolling down the page, i count how many clicks it took to get to the bottom. or if i'm reading an assignment for school, sometimes i'll subconsiously count the # of letters in the words. and when i'm at home by myself it's at it's worst. like everything i do, i have to touch something over and over until it feels "right". and in the back of my head i'll picture something bad, particularly death happening to someone i love, like my son, fiance, or a family member. like in my mind i'll think, ok if i don't do this then "so and so" is gonna get into a car accident. anyways, i know this post sounds very peculiar but it's literally the first time i've ever told a soul. im very good at controlling it whn ppl are around. but as soon as im by myself, it consumes alot of my time. i found out i had symptoms when i was reading about negative thoughts. bc out of nowhere w out me trying, my mind will wander and always bring up something negative or about something in the past that bothers me. and i won't even be trying to think of these things. so, as i was doing research on that, i came across ocd, and one of the websites said that they could be connected. anyways, im sorry this is SO long! i really do have lots of other examples that i could've listed. but i didnt' want to go too overboard on post length. please if anyone has any insight, please comment! i don't have insurance and can not afford to see a doctor or psychiatrist. so your help would be appreciated!! thanks for reading:))
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