Having ocd all my life has been a struggle. I have tourettes,anxiety,depression and I rage especially in the morning. 7 years ago I met my husband. It seemed like it had changed my life at the time and I was managing it much better at the time. I graduated college with a phd I held down a job for a while. we have had our bumps in the road like any other relationship would have.It will be 2 years in june since weve lived together. Before he would just go home. I say nasty things to him at times and give him a hard time when he wants to be left alone and I know just because someone wants to be left alone means that there doing something wrong or dont wanna do what you wanna do.
Ive had this hair pulling for a long time and im obsessed that my nails and hair have to be perfect and ive been raging alot in the morning. He doesnt get its not him or when I get irritable. But lately hes been very tempered where ive always had this hair issue he tells me to shave it all off then screaming or hed just like to rip it out, lately with my rage he will smash things into the wall we have no dishes left just paper plates and cups. I know ive knit picked everything.but before he would be so quiet about it where hes bottled it up for so long. lately for the last 4 weeks when he doesnt even have to get up for work hes been getting up at 5 in the morning. just to go out an hour before i get up saying he has to get gas or go to the grocery store then to the bank and people dont do that that early in the morning because its not open that early.Quite frequent ive spotted him sleeping in his car to avoid me.
Ive always had a hard time holding down a job because im late do to ocd and i call out due to being depressed and filled with anxiety and sometimes cant get out of bed and eversince being married hes always had to pay everything i know it aint right and i know i cant keep making excuses blaming it all my mental health.
his temper has been at a real boil lately I know why, and I just dont know what to do. I ask him would he cheat on me he had this angry life then said after dealing with you and for what youve put me thru i would never want anything to do with another woman EVER AND I MEAN EVER!!!!! because of all this I fear him filing for divorce and leaving me and right now I know I need to do something now and fast many people especially my dad tell me im lucky to have him.
This weekend I was challenged to a Fitbit challenge. I don’t believe I’ll get where I need to be, but your support would be appreciated all the same. Hugs,Star.
Each day I’ll change the question. Your job is to answer what you like more. Okay? Here we go!!!Apples or Oranges?