I was doing great until I slipped.........Something happened the other night that has got me worried. I was feeling lonely the other night and went to a bar by myself. I think I had 6 or 7 beers and drove around (bars closed, I know I made an idiot choice). Anyway, I drove around, went to Tim Horton's (coffee shop) and then home. My OCD will not let me move on. It's been 2 weeks and I'm not eating or sleeping wondering if I did something perverted and can't remember. First of all, can alcohol make you do something that you are dead set against? Another thing that is worrying me is I remember thinking (I'm a virgin) what if I let a prostitute just give me oral sex. Surely I wouldn't get any kind of disease that way. I don't remember doing anything here and I am not out of any money (I added up my receipts from the night before with the money in my wallet). But, what if something somehow happened? I'm a virgin but what if I know have a disease because of something I can't remember. My final concern is, I got out of the house to try to get my mind off this hell and went to a hockey game. When I got there I sat down and was off in my own thoughts when I turned and noticed a guy glaring at me. I see this guy at all the hockey games and I remember seeing him at one of the bars on my night of stupidity. Anyway, he glared for quite a while and then stopped. What if I did something that night and can't remember. I am straight but what if somehow I am subconsciously gay and hit on him or worse? I am going out of my mind. Is this classic OCD or am I a whore loving perv? I'm about to go back to the states but am frozen in fear. What do you think? I don't know what I was thinking drinking and driving. I was in a pretty good place until I did this. When will I learn?
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