Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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Is this geniune or....

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do i really have ocd?

well i find it difficult to accept or get help, and my pride usually gets in the way a lot of the time. But I am writing this now, and I hope people can give some advice - anything at this point in time will be constructive.

I haven't been diagnosed, but i believe the signs are there. I am, and DO feel obbsessed about terminal illnesses, and it's been a constant worry for over four months ever since i started feeling faint and my glands swelled up. I have been through ups and downs with it and it's almost ''grown'' on me now, and I have tried to accept I may die. For 2 weeks I had been doing OK and found some peace of mind in myself to logically chant things like 'if you had cancer you'd be far more ill by now'. But all of a sudden anxiety came back again, and I dont panick as much as i used to, because as i said its grown on me - but it stops me from going out, or doing anything in my life and i have quit education and lost a lot of friends this way.

To let you understand what i do i will give you a list of my daily routine and what dreams i have;

i have frequent nightmares about death and cancer, and i have even woken up from one today where in this dream a ''nurse'' had told me a blood test showed cancer cells and i was dying

i look in the mirror immediately when i wake to see if i look pale or thin

i ask everyone i know if i look ill or yellow, or if ive changed in 4 months

i take pictures of myself everyday to see if the camera picks anything up

i check my glands and one side is more swollen than the other

i check myself in the mirror most likely over 20 times a day

i have been to the doctors a lot and have already had a clear blood test, but i am waiting for some new results at the hospital

i believe i am dying. when i cry my glands go down however

i used to look up on medical sites all day everyday at one point

i am afraid to live because i fear i will die like my brother.

im sorry if this was so long, but i need help pretty soon. i have coped with this in silence for a long time
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Well it could be ocd. There's also general anxiety disorder which is no less debilitating. Get a dx if you can. Most psychiatrists will ablidge, but sometimes getting an appointment can take time. Hope it gets better.
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Maybe its just cause what ever happen to your brother is causing you to think everytime your sick your going to die like him...

Sounds like a panic attacks to me that when we think to long on them we cause ourselves to be worse then what we are...

Or could be something else that is wrong either way check it out with your doc and see what he/she says about it...
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I completely understand what you are going through. Back in 1999 my aunt died via a staff infection in a hospital. After she had died, it consumed me as to how fragile I must be. I couldnt breathe and ended up in the hospital, I thought I was dying. I was placed on celexa and xanax and began to feel better, but I still suffer from anxiety.
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Uh, have you seen your doctor for a physical? This may help my confirming the state of your overall health. That should give you some peace of mind...and may stop the obsessive behavior. Just a thought.
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