Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
do i really have ocd?
well i find it difficult to accept or get help, and my pride usually gets in the way a lot of the time. But I am writing this now, and I hope people can give some advice - anything at this point in time will be constructive.
I haven't been diagnosed, but i believe the signs are there. I am, and DO feel obbsessed about terminal illnesses, and it's been a constant worry for over four months ever since i started feeling faint and my glands swelled up. I have been through ups and downs with it and it's almost ''grown'' on me now, and I have tried to accept I may die. For 2 weeks I had been doing OK and found some peace of mind in myself to logically chant things like 'if you had cancer you'd be far more ill by now'. But all of a sudden anxiety came back again, and I dont panick as much as i used to, because as i said its grown on me - but it stops me from going out, or doing anything in my life and i have quit education and lost a lot of friends this way.
To let you understand what i do i will give you a list of my daily routine and what dreams i have;
i have frequent nightmares about death and cancer, and i have even woken up from one today where in this dream a ''nurse'' had told me a blood test showed cancer cells and i was dying
i look in the mirror immediately when i wake to see if i look pale or thin
i ask everyone i know if i look ill or yellow, or if ive changed in 4 months
i take pictures of myself everyday to see if the camera picks anything up
i check my glands and one side is more swollen than the other
i check myself in the mirror most likely over 20 times a day
i have been to the doctors a lot and have already had a clear blood test, but i am waiting for some new results at the hospital
i believe i am dying. when i cry my glands go down however
i used to look up on medical sites all day everyday at one point
i am afraid to live because i fear i will die like my brother.
im sorry if this was so long, but i need help pretty soon. i have coped with this in silence for a long time
well i find it difficult to accept or get help, and my pride usually gets in the way a lot of the time. But I am writing this now, and I hope people can give some advice - anything at this point in time will be constructive.
I haven't been diagnosed, but i believe the signs are there. I am, and DO feel obbsessed about terminal illnesses, and it's been a constant worry for over four months ever since i started feeling faint and my glands swelled up. I have been through ups and downs with it and it's almost ''grown'' on me now, and I have tried to accept I may die. For 2 weeks I had been doing OK and found some peace of mind in myself to logically chant things like 'if you had cancer you'd be far more ill by now'. But all of a sudden anxiety came back again, and I dont panick as much as i used to, because as i said its grown on me - but it stops me from going out, or doing anything in my life and i have quit education and lost a lot of friends this way.
To let you understand what i do i will give you a list of my daily routine and what dreams i have;
i have frequent nightmares about death and cancer, and i have even woken up from one today where in this dream a ''nurse'' had told me a blood test showed cancer cells and i was dying
i look in the mirror immediately when i wake to see if i look pale or thin
i ask everyone i know if i look ill or yellow, or if ive changed in 4 months
i take pictures of myself everyday to see if the camera picks anything up
i check my glands and one side is more swollen than the other
i check myself in the mirror most likely over 20 times a day
i have been to the doctors a lot and have already had a clear blood test, but i am waiting for some new results at the hospital
i believe i am dying. when i cry my glands go down however
i used to look up on medical sites all day everyday at one point
i am afraid to live because i fear i will die like my brother.
im sorry if this was so long, but i need help pretty soon. i have coped with this in silence for a long time
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Sounds like a panic attacks to me that when we think to long on them we cause ourselves to be worse then what we are...
Or could be something else that is wrong either way check it out with your doc and see what he/she says about it...