Okay, so I've been single for a while (two years to be exact) and before now, all I've ever wanted was a boyfriend. I still do now, but at the same time I'm scared to death of it. What if I start having thoughts about the guy that I like? What if I confess too much to him and he thinks I'm a freak? I feel pressure now though because there are some guys that like me and I feel like my roommates are pressuring me a little to date. I know they aren't intentionally doing this, but I'm afraid that if a guy likes me that I will hurt their feelings or something if I don't like them back and that I'll feel obligated to go out with them because of this. And now I'm having intrusive thoughts about one of my family members, which really disgusts me, I really wish I didn't have these thoughts. But as if that wasn't bad enough, I now start comparing boys to the person I'm have the intrusive thoughts about. If they look anything like them I won't want to date them. There is one boy that likes me, and he's really sweet and all that stuff, but he has dark hair. This is nuts! My OCD is making me not want to date guys with dark hair! Because the person I have intrusive thoughts about has dark hair. I feel so crazy! I have nothing against people with dark hair, believe me, this just started recently. I kinda hope someone can relate, at least a little?
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