Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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I hate this hell

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I have severe OCD.

My boyfriend thinks I can pet sit or something easy, but I just can't with my OCD, I have to re-check everything I do, it's all irrational fears that I have, it's a hellish nightmare for those who have OCD. He doesn't fully understand it. Sometimes in life you just can't work and that's ok. I left my other two jobs because of my OCD, and the one job for other reasons too, and all the checking over and over, it's truly a nightmare to live this way. If I would pet sit I would worry that I turned on their stove, water, make sure doors are locked, and mainly if the pets are ok, I would do this over and over, I have tried it before and it was hell.

All what I mentioned above is just a small part of my OCD, sometimes I start to gag from coughing or brushing my teeth or from drinking something, I can also throw up my meds or food while brushing my teeth, because my OCD tells me to gag one more time and that results in throwing up. Sorry to be so graphic. I have terrible thoughts about God and other's and have to pray ALL the time for forgiveness, and I try to be a Christian.

I put this in my journal too.
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I know, sweet. I know you have all of this. It's awful. Truly. All anyone can say is that things really are OK and this is what your boyfriend sees. I don't think people without ocd can really truly ever understand. I wonder if he would agree to go with you to see a counselor if you have one. Maybe let the counselor explain the best s/he can what ocd is like for you. Then it's your turn to listen to what ocd is like for him!! Nothing he ever says or does will help. People don't like feeling helpless and he may think that he isn't really needed if he can't help in any way. Maybe work out with our counselor some small way in which he CAN help so you both feel that you are making progress. Well, just a thought. You are in my prayers. And remember that God is really much bigger and kinder than we ever dreamed of being. God isn't angry with you for what you can't help.
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God knows your heart and even in your darkest hour, there is a reason for our challenges. I will be pulling for you and praying for you. I know how hard this must be for you. Hang in there and take it a day at a time. A minute at a time if you have to.
JMRH
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@cluttery your right ppl without ocd don't know how it is on the inside of us how we feel. We may look fine from the outside but if ppl could only look inside of us to see how we feel, how we think what upsets us they would then know what hell we go through on a daily basis.
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