i've been feeling down about my ocd lately. coming on here i have started to assess how bad my ocd is (thought i WAS doing ok!)and realised that my ocd is quite bad. i have realised i give in the ocd fears and take the easy way out, for example, i dont like to use the bin so i have a spot in the kitchen on the top where i leave rubbish and my boyfriend comes along and puts it in the bin like some magical little rubbish fairy.i have given in the fear of getting dirty off the bin. i have given into a lot and i am not standing up to the ocd.my biggest problem is the urges i get when i think something ocd related. it probably started out that i would have a bad thought or a distressing thought and i would say to myself i dont feel like doing that its only a thought this has progressed through the years i think to my actually having an urge to do the bad thoughts in my head. i cant just say to myself i dont want to think that way anymore i have a strong urge to do whats in my head. the feeling is so strong its quite distressing because i do always fight it.these urges can not be switched off like a lightbulb i wish they could. how can you stop a feeling?
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