I have been going through OCD for about 4 years now.. I'm so sick of it! I have a wonderful family, with really nothing to complain about in my life. I constantly struggle with thoughts of killing someone after only being angry at them for a short while, although this is totally opposite from who i am. Or who i HOPE i am.. I always worry.. are you REALLY a good person? are these REALLY just OCD thoughts? Lately I have been worried about killing a loved one. He has been involved in drugs and become someone totally opposite of himself. We used to be so close.. but now he is always expecting everyone to do everything for him, and never appreciates what my dad or family does for him. I keep having awful thoughts of killing him, and since he makes me angry and it seems like an 'escape' from the situation, it makes me feel like i really want to do it... but i don't want to want to do it or think about it! Does anyone experience these same problems? am i an awful person or is it just ocd??
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