ugh, so I know that there are all degrees of this disorder out there and I have a whole new appreciation for people going thru tough times, especially those suffering with ocd. i have pure o, I now know that I've had it a long time but it has really blown up and become truly bothersome since I had my baby. Well, after educating myself and going thru therapy, I know I am better, as in the beginning I wanted to kill myself, would ruminate every waking hour and was soooo distraught of my violent and means thoughts about my prescious baby. Well, now I am better and I do my exposures (I should do them more but they are boring and not as anxiety provoking as before but the repetition helps to not care as much about the bad thoughts). But I still have thoughts ALL the time and somedays its hard not to get so fed up and depressed, even thou i know i must accept and move forward. I mean what other choice do i have? BUT, will they ever go away or at least very few a day? My therapist says thats the goal but I'm starting to wonder if I'll be having ugly thoughts years from now about my child. Sometimes its hard to seperate myself from these awful thoughts, even thou I KNOW they are ocd and not me. I hate them! Any words of encouragement? Thanks, you people are very nice and I truly wish all of you the best b/c this disorder is relentless and its hard for other people to understand the distress mere thoughts can cause a person. its nice to have you all to talk to :)
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