i have a compulsion a bad compulsion that i am very obsessed with. i can tap into my friends email account. i figured out her password. i have tried to stop doing this . i know its wrong. i know i am betraying her yet i cant stop. i dont know if its the thrill of being secretive. i tell myself i am going to quit but i cant. its almost like an addiction. i dont even know if this is OCD. but if i go a few days without doing it i feel all out of sorts then when i do it i feel relieved and then guilty. its a viscious cycle. its like i "need" to do it.
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