Today was new for me because it's the first time that my OCD has ever interfered with responsibilities. I was actually late for work because I was cleaning something...on the outside of the house door. How ridiculous is that. And the checking is driving me crazy. I check...and check...and check. I finally got to a point in my life where my ocd was fairly mild and not disruptive, but recently have gone through some very stressful situations in my personal life. It is now worse than it's ever been before. I also have a new cat who requires that things be picked up very well, and that has just made it worse. I keep checking, I walk through the house at least three times before I leave to make sure everything is just so. And then sometimes come back in and check again. I don't have a specific number of times that I check per se, just until I feel like I can walk away without completely losing my mind with worry that something was not right. I even drove back home today after I had already left because I just had to check and make sure all the cleaning supplies were away, even though I had already checked a couple times. The checking and checking is starting to drive me nuts. I am determined to get past this without having to get medication, but man it has been a rough time lately and the stress level of the OCD on top of what's been going on in my life is getting to be a bit much. It is, however, relieving to see that others have the same struggles.
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