I know for certain that I have OCD, but my compulsions seem much more uncommon and strange than the typical things I've heard. I don't have an obsession with numbers, or germs, I'm not even much of a perfectionist, well, only for specific things. Instead, I spend an embarressing amount of time picking the split ends of my hair, I also pick at scabs and dry skin. Sometimes I start scratching my scalp initially because it's itchy but then I continue to scratch past that point and so hard that there's blood in my fingernails. The weirdest thing I do, that bothers me the most when I'm trying to sleep, is I compulsively rub the top of my forehead and the bottom of my chin. I have to put pressure on the palms of my hards, on the back of my knees, the crease of my elbow and a bunch of other spots, usually creases on my body. I have to do them over and over again as if they were bug bites that don't stop itching. I have NEVER heard of anyone else have that problem so I feel particularly embarressed when I have to explain it to someone or, even worse, when people catch me doing them.
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