I had a REALLY good weekend. My psych just recently upped the dosage on my prozac and the intrustive thoughts were not as bad. My particular obsession is my fear that my husband will go to hell. A voice constantly whispers that in my head, even though dear husband is adamant he is saved and has never lied to me before, attends church with me, prays with me, etc. I just question, "what if he doesn't have it right," etc. I think its a control thing, that I can't control his relationship with the Lord. I didn't want to question him so much this weekend but I feel guilty like I didnt obsess enough about it and its important and I somehow will be responsible or condemned I guess. I find myself afraid to NOT obsess, almost as if I don't the obsession will come true, if I dont try to fight it. I feel like I'm afraid to get better? Does that make sense?
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